Tiffany, Tiffany, who can I turn to?
Ah, the iconic song 867-5309 Jenny by Tommy Tutone. After Michael passed away, a few guys thought they would take the opportunity to "console" my emotions in very sly ways I may add. Of course, I thought their behavior was rude and not gentleman like. After their remarks, these specific guys definitely didn't have a chance, even if I was in the mood to date someone.
I haven't been on a date in 10 years. I forgot what it is even like trying to find dates. Michael and I had been together for so long and had every intention of being together for years to come that I didn't even think about stuff like that. Now that he is gone, in the future I am sure I will. However, until then I am content with being myself unless you are one of my celebrity crushes (just kidding, okay maybe/maybe not).
It has been 6 months since he passed away. Most of the time I don't even think he is gone. I feel like he is still with me. I'm sure in spirit he is and I hope he is my guardian angel. I haven't deleted his number from my phone, our status on FB still has us in a relationship together and I have pictures of us adorning my room. I am in no rush. I'm not trying to be testy with males and I don't want them to think I am stuck up. I'm just grieving still and will be for quite sometime. I couldn't imagine myself "dating" anyone other than Michael.
I'm sure that feeling will change one day. Right now, it hasn't and pushing me isn't going to get anyone anywhere. As my quote goes, "I'm not single. I'm in a long standing relationships with freedom, fun, and self love."
Has anyone else out there that is a widow experienced this situation? I would like to hear your stories and thoughts.
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